It's so beautiful when the boy smiles...

wow I haven't update4d in forever. Well it's winter break now, umm christmas was pretty good, i got an ipod! my sister and her bf are staying with us til jan 2 so it's been kewl to hang out with her. what else...umm went to King Kong with matt, nancy, brandon, katie, alicia, mike, kasey and ali. It was good but pretty long. Then we went back to my house and hung out for a while, played apples to apples, ate pizza and such. it was a good time...a verrrrrry good time. :) Hoping new years eve will work out the same way. So i think we need to have a day where everybody brings pics of them when they were little, it'd be hilarious. nancy says brandon was really cute when he was little and i def wanna c matt with a bowl cut, hahaha. So yep that's about all I got. wow that was a boring entry.

*...But my god it's so beautiful when the boy smiles, wanna hold him...maybe I'll just sing about it....cuz you can't jump the track, we're like cars on cable, life's like an hourglass glued to the table, no one can find the rewind button girl...*


<3 you!

Madelyn

everyone knows I'm in over my head

5 days til christmas! that's crazy, and then after that it's like a week til new years! ahhh! hmm other year almost gone and what do I have to show for it...first date dance, permit, LOTS of new music, new level in gymnastics, idk all these seem kinda pitiful to me, somehow I feel like there should be more better accomplishments to name because it feels like it's been a pretty ok year except for the beginning that is. Maybe that shows that all the little things add up and make a difference in the long run even if you can't call them an accomplishment. hmm idk annnnyways....really hoping my parents got me an ipod for xmas because that would be purely amazing. umm my sister comes home on thursday, that should be fun cept chris is coming too and i mean he's really kewl but it just means like less sister time, o well anything's better than her not coming cuz I def haven't seen her since JULY! So anyone seen king kong yet? I really wanna go...maybe thurs, knowing me tho I'll probly start freaking out or like bawling at the end, something embarassing like that.

*...I'm losing you and its effortless....*
Yea kinda feel like that right now. Def not feeling the positive vibe about stuff anymore like I was a couple weeks ago. Idk guys are just way to confusing and mysterious. Fuck poker faces. ha yeaaa only a couple of u will get it but thats ok. But idk I jsut feel like i'm giving up without even wanting to and like if I give up that it'll just be the end, actually I'm pretty sure about that. Which makes me sad cuz that means he really just doesn't give a shit. or he only does if i do which isnt good enough. idk anyone who knows the situation...comments? suggestions? opinions?

alright well thats about it...onyl one more thing i wanna include. The Fray. I discovered them last weekend and am now completely obsessed with this song so here's the lyrics.

Over My Head (Cable Car)
The Fray

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

~MCS

an actual update shall come later

First Name:	madelyn
Middle Name:	Claire
Birthday:	Jan 22
Eyes:	brown
Hair:	brown
Fav color:	pink
Day/Night:	night
Fave Food:	chocolate
FRIENDS AND LIFE
Do you ever wish you had another name?	sometimes, not usually
Do you like anyone?	yep
Which one of your friends acts the most like you?	umm Katie probly
Who's the loudest?	depends on the day/where we are
Who have you known the longest of your friends?	nancy
Who's the shyest:	katie
Are you close to any family members?	yea
When you cried the most:	umm last yr probly
What's the best feeling in the world:	being with the ones you love and knowing they love you back
Worst Feeling:	losing someone you love
FINISH EACH SENTENCE:
Let's walk on the:	beach
Let's run through:	the fields
Let's look at the:	sky
What a nice:	day
Where did all the:	cowboys go
Why can't you:	be less confusing
Silly, little:	...?
Tell me:	you love me
HAVE YOU:
Ran away from home:	nope
Pictured your crush naked:	not the present one
Skipped school:	nope, skipped classes but stayed in school
Broken someone's heart:	i hope not
Been in love:	possibly
Cried when someone died:	yes
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have:	yesss
Done something embarrassing:	of course
Done a drug:	does alcohol count
Cried in school:	dont think so
RANDOM
Your Good Luck Charm:	umm nothing in particular, livestrong bracelet?
Person You Hate Most:	bush
Best Thing That Has Happened:	um really hard thing to decide
Ice Cream:	yumm
WHO Makes you laugh the most:	a lot of people
Makes you smile:	peter pan ;)
Has A Crush On You:	idk i hope someone does
Do You Have A Crush On Someone:	yes
HAVE YOU EVER
Fallen for your best friend?:	nope
Made out with JUST a friend?:	nope
Kissed two people in the same day?:	no
Had sex with two different people in the same day?:	def not
Been rejected: .	not really
Been in love?:	possibly
Been used?:	dont think so
Done something you regret?:	yep
Cheated on someone?:	nope
Been called a tease:	not to my face
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
You touched?:	my mom
You talked to on the phone?:	nancy
You hugged?:	:) someone awesome, but i've hugged people after that i think
You instant messaged?:	nancy
You kissed?:	n/a
You yelled at?:	my mom
Who text messaged you?:	danni
Who broke your heart?:	umm...idk
Who told you they loved you?:	nancy...as friends of course
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nancy's random questions

so yep. it's friday. doesnt really feel like one though. Hopefully this weekend'll be fun. anyways I'm jsut bored and decided to answer the q's nancy put on her blog.

what would u love 2 do right now? sing!

what do u plan on doin this weekend? hang with people, hopefulyl certain people ;) and christmas shop

what mood r u in right now? a pretty good one, def be better if people were here

what r u listenin 2? rascal flatts, feels liek today

pick a word... lust

what do u think of this..idk life or..choices or what do u need to rant about or..do u believe in regrets like or just movin on or? ummm not exactly sure what to put here, I sorta believe in regrets but I try not to regret a lot, because some stuff happens for a reason right

another one of those song lyric entries...

*this has been said so many times that i'm not sure if it matters

but we never stood a chance and i'm not sure if it matters

If you are the shores I am the waves begging for big moons...

I used to obsess over living now only obsess over you*


*I wrote this for you...

I could be an accident but I'm still trying...

where is your boy tonight I hope he is a gentleman*

*It's like your a ghost that's haunting me

leave me alone...

It's like i can't breathe

It's like I can't see anything, nothing but you

I'm addicted to you

It's like I can't think

without you interrupting me, in my thoughts, in my dreams

You've taken over me...it's like I'm not me...*


~~EDIT~~
yea def in a way better mood : ) so i hadta put a little more upbeat song in here

I Wanna Get To Ya-Billy Gilman
I've got a secret I can't keep
I've got my eyes on something sweet
It feels like my heart's pounding through my chest
You've got a smile I can't resist
I get tongue tied, everytime you and I are close like this
Girl, here's my wish

I wanna get to ya
I wanna be the one that moves ya
I wanna give my heart to ya
I want you so much
Girl I know just what I've been missing
I wanna be the one you're kissin'
So open up your arms and listen
I wanna get to ya

I'm the kind of guy who understands
A simple little thing like holding hands
Or x's and o's on a love note sent to you
I'll make you a promise that I'll keep
I'm telling you, right here, right now
I'll get down on my knees
I'll do anything

I wanna get to ya
I wanna be the one that moves ya
I wanna give my heart to ya
I want you so much
Girl I know just what
I've been missing
I wanna be the one you're kissin'
So open up your arms and listen
I wanna get to ya

The way I feel
I know this love is real
Baby, I'm head over heels for you

too little too late?

I feel like it's too late, the wreckage is already strewn around me.

there's no going back they say because there's no hope of survivors now

but a child cries out beneath the smoldering damage, crying out for someone to come save her

I'm the only one that hears her, the quiet frail scared voice crying out to be saved, praying someone has a shred of hope for her left

I know I do but it's fading fast like the sun falling beneath the trees and I can't bring myself to act upon it

and her hope of being rescued disappears as the clock ticks off another minute wasted.

So I feel I have to keep this hope, only for her, so that maybe just by me doing this she'll fight for life a few moments longer

~MS

-uhh yea this sucks i know, i've tried revising it like 12 times but i can't anymore and yea i just don't care right now, maybe edit it later? nobody's gonna know what it's about anyways besides maybe the flying duck.

yea so since i don't feel like explaining anything right now but I wanna at the same time i'm just putting song lyrics in here of the songs i've been listening to all day.

*It feels like my heart's pounding through my chest
You've got a smile I can't resist
I get tongue tied, everytime you and I are close like this
Girl, here's my wish
I wanna get to ya
I wanna be the one that moves ya
I wanna give my heart to ya
I want you so much
Girl I know just what I've been missing
I wanna be the one you're kissin'
So open up your arms and listen
I wanna get to ya* ~I wanna get to ya, Billy Gilman

*If you tell me you'll be mine
I'm Never gonna spend another night
Without you in my dreams* ~Spend Another Night, Billy Gilman

*Woke up this morning
With this feeling inside me that I can't explain...* ~Feels like today, Rascal flatts

and I saved the best one for last, it's so good i'm putting the whole song in

Bless The Broken Road-Rascal Flatts
*I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.*

<333
Madelyn :)

The Real Macho ; )

yea thought this was pretty much hilarious yesterday. nancy said it reminds me of someone but that's not it i dont think. yea anyways it's friday finally!!!! yay!! so happy about that because this weekend is def going to rock. *...turn off the lights and turn off the shyness cuz all of our moves make up for the silence...* cannot wait until tomara, like omg u dont understand how excited i am. like i cant put it into words. today was good too, spanish is def the best class ever. bio runs a close second tho. alright well i dont wanna write anymore so i'll add later.

<3333

Maddogg*

All I want for Christmas is YOU!

its snowing again! yay! It really needs to stay like this until christmas because its just not right if there's no snow on christmas morning. 25 days. xmas is def my all time favorite holiday, what other holiday do you prepare for for like months in advance, has its own music genre and involves seeing all your family and getting presents? but anyways moving on...umm last weekend was alright, i got sick so that kinda sucked cuz i like wanted to go outside in the snow but i like wasnt allowed to. this week's been alright, monday and tuesday were pretty normal, boring school days, yesterday was oddly fantastic for some reason. and today was just ehh. def have a shitload of hw to do tonight which sucks. This weekend should be pretty much the most amazing weekend ever. friday night-first boys varsity bball game! o yes. sat-gymnastics meet at 745 AM! ahh. but then girls r coming over at 5 to hang and get ready, dinner at 7ish at don pablos then off to sadies! yea only been looking forward to this for like the last month straight. But idk I'm kinda not wanting it to happen at the same time tho becuase I hate that feeling like after somethign you've been looking forward to is over jsut like that. and idk what's gonna happen like the next week, kinda freaking out about it :/ Who knows maybe it'll just be really good and everything will fall perfectly into place, a girl can dream come on. alright well i better get goign on that massive amount of hw that's sitting next to me. add more later.

*...I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas
Is you...*