Monday, March 13, 2006

D.H.T. songs

So I finally found the cd Katie made me for Christmas and I'm def loving these DHT songs and had to share the lyrics with you guys.

"Someone" ~D.H.T.
You can't eat, you can't sleep, you can weep when you love someone
Feels extreme when you dream, and you scream when you love someone

If you feel that strong
Can you see that, one

[Chorus]
Let me be your...

Someone to hold you tight
Someone to make you feel All right.

Every day and night
I wish I was your someone


Someone to hold you when you're weak
Someone to make you feel complete

Every day and night
I wish I was your someone

Someone

Don't you know, I will go, if you show that I can break through
Feels extreme when you dream, and you scream when you love someone

If you feel that strong
Can you see that you're the one

[Chorus]

And I hold you tight
You're still on my mind, I can't stand to live without you
And I can't forget you
Wherever you are, you're still on my mind


"I Can't Be Your Friend Anymore" ~D.H.T.
You can run to me
You can laugh at me
Or you can walk right out that door
But I can't be your friend anymore

This might come as quite a shock
But I've given it a lot of thought
This thing that's come between us can't be ignored
I've taken all I can
This is where it's got to end

Cause I can't be your friend anymore

And I can't be accused
Of not being there for you
How many nights have you shown up at my door
I hope you understand
That this wasn't in my plans
But I can't be your friend anymore

And it's killing me to know you
Without having a chance to hold you
And all I wanna do is show you how I really feel inside
You can run to me
You can laugh at me
Or you can walk right out that door
But I can't be your friend anymore

So baby now it's up to you
Do I win or do I lose

Will my heart fly or lie broken on the floor
Well take me as I am
Cause I want you to be my man
But I can't be your friend anymore


And it's killing me to know you
Without having a chance to hold you
And all I wanna do is show you
How I really feel inside
You can run to me
You can laugh at me
Or you can walk right out that door
But I can't be your friend anymore

And it's killing me to know you
Without having a chance to hold you
And all I wanna do is show you

You can run to me
You can laugh at me
Or you can walk right out that door
But I can't be "just friends" anymore

snowwww

SNOWDAY TODAY!

yesss. and mexico in one week.

that's all i got.


...madelyn has left the building

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Don't Wanna Think About You

Well today's been pretty good. The weather is really nice and finally feels a little like spring which like makes my day. But yea idk I'm feeling pretty confident and besides being a tad pissed off I'm feeling pretty over this whole Matt thing. I know I made it a bigger deal than it needed to be but he totally made the wrong decisions too and shoulda just been honest with me. And I do intend to somehow tell him that in the future. But I guess I went about things the wrong way too, I tried to be someone I'm not, I tried to be outgoing and into everything he is. I can't say I regret doing alot of the stuff I did though because Sadies was really fun and I'm really glad I asked him and I'm glad I told him everything otherwise I'd still be sitting here wondering what would've happened if I had, even though this wasn't exactly what I had in mind. Oh well, there's gotta be someone out there that appreciates me and is attracted to me like I was with matt. But cmon can i find them soon, please?! So yea...not a whole lot else to explain or talk about really. I'm glad to have a bunch of stuff planned so I can keep my mind on that and who knows maybe i'll find a hot mexican boy over spring break ;) So it's all over...for now because I know there'll be days when I'll be sad again and want to have him and go back to when I thought he liked me, but when were those again? It was just all a fake, for him at least because I did and still would mean the things I said from the beginning. I jsut gotta keep up this attitude or try my best because "no man is worth a woman's tears and the only one who is would never make her cry."

Finally some clarity...
~Madelyn

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

i dont even know anymore...

They [ignore] each other and look the other way but they * both know > deep down // inside it wasn't supposed to end this way.

one day he's gonna realize
"wow she really did love me, i blew it."

she's risking a broken heart being with you.
please, don't let her down.

i just wanna call him up & be like
"take it or leave it" but i'm afraid to
because i have a feeling he'll leave it
cause he doesn`t need me as much
as i need him


everyone says to give up on you, but they don`t see you like i do. you`re the one who broke my heart the reason my world fell apart you`re the one who made me cry, yet i still love you and i don`t know why.

why am I so AFRAID to l.o.s.e you when you arent even mine?


Idk what to say, but I can't not say something I'm trying to be all logical and realistic about this but it's really hard cuz that's not me. can we just go back 2 months and start from there? can we just forget these last two months and have things go back to normal? would you just come talk to me already so I can move on and know there's no chance for us. I can't handle this imagination anymore. I wanna move on if that's what I gotta do, but i can't bring myself to leave the thought of being with you. I need you, why can't you just need me too? or at least tell me the truth

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

what hurts the most

yea...remember a few weeks ago when i heard this song and loved it even though I couldn't relate, well now it makes me cry cuz I can relate so much.

What hurts the most-rascal flatts
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

def could use some love right now, and spring break so I can get away. thanx tho u guys that've put up with me the last couple days and helped me and distracted me, i love you.