updated...finally!

I wanna go back! that's my hotel in Kauai, i was in that pool!!!!!

Hey haven't updated in like forever! I got back from Kauai on Tuesday. It was an awesome trip...so relaxing.... Anywho tomorrow's a half day yay! And i totally have like nothing to say. I kinda feel like I haven't talked to anyone in like forever cuz i've been gone and stuff and Katie hasn't been online, or john either come to think of it. Dude if u read this leave me a comment! i haven't talked to u in like forever! well i'll write more later when i have something good to say.

later!

~Madelyn

*....'cause i don't need to hang on to heartbreak, when there's so much of life left to live...love is on the way on wings of angels....*

Just around the Riverbend

*...just around the riverbend beyond the shore where the gulls fly free don't know what for what i dream the day might send just around the riverbend for me coming for me....*

Ha remember that old disney song? it's from pocahontas. disney songs are awesome! Anyways I leave for Hawaii tomara morning, the cab comes at 6 AM! yikes that'll be interesting. but it's just around the riverbend if you wanna think of it like that. i'm excited but kinda nervous at the same time. idk maybe it's just like anxiousness (wow cant spell that) anyway just thought i'd update b4 i left, don't have too muchy to say. I'm hoping to scan some of the pictures in so i can put em in here afterwards.

*...a whole new world, a new fantastic point of view no one to tell us no or where to go or say we're only dreaming, a whole new world a dazzling place i never knew...*


p.s. mike u betta have a blog by the time i get back!!! ;)

it's spring break...rock on!

hey everyone! spring break is finally finally here! 2 more days and i'll be on my way to the warmth of HAWAII! anyways today was pretty kewl, school was slowwww but nancy and i hung at caribou afterwards and that was really fun. I'm jealous that she gets ta hang on vacation with katie but i'd rather go to hawaii than wisconsin so... anyhoo anna like flipped out at lunch today cuz maddy said something about lacrosse being wimpy. and like i can understand being like hey! no way, it rox! but she like threw maddy's food and stormed out of the cafeteria. and all of us were like stunned. but i mean i can't say it's totally out of character. i mean last year she threw amanda's script in the garbage and put cheese on it. i mean come on how childish? But i felt bad today too. I mean obviously it wasn't right of her to do but at the same time I feel like i betrayed her even though i really didnt say anything, well maybe like "anna chill out" idk something like that. Anyways life goes on it'll blow over. w/e. i'm gunna miss nancy and katie cuz they leave tomara and i dont leave til monday. o well it'll be hectic trying to get everything done b4 we leave so i'll be busy. can't wait! katie (my sis) says it's like a fantasy and i'll never want to come back. i can see that-i didnt wanna come back from chicago but i guess that's a little different. well g2g-simpsons time! i heart that show! love u all!

happy trails!

Madelyn

And the Hawaii Countdown Begins!

Wow you can totally tell it's the weekk before break everybody at school was like nuts today and it was monday. I was amazingly awake this morning...i think it was because it was sunny out and not pitch black when i went out to my bus. Today was a pretty good day...for a monday that is, depends on how gymnastics goes tonite but i kinda wanna go so yay. i'm so completely addicted to this kelly clarkson cd its unbelievable! everytime i'm on the computer i listen to it (i dont have it on cd yet just in my library) and i have some kelly clarkson song stuck in my head at all times. like on sunday i woke up and had like because of you or sumthing stuck in my head. ONLY A WEEK TIL HAWAII!!!!!!!!!!! omg i totally cannot wait. And I'm already tan! woohoo! *...it's like i can't think without you interrupting me....* Yea like blaring kelly clarkson and singin every word...can u hear it? tehehe. wow i am so hyper right now! well nothing more to say...gotta get some hw done! have a good break if i dont update b4 then!!!

<3

I love this cd!

ok first of all i have to say that i officially love the Kelly Clarkson Breakaway cd. it is fucking awesome! here's some kewl lyrics from it.
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster?

I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

i'm gone to find someone to live for in this world
there's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
just a bridge that i gotta burn

Well anyways you get the point. well so far this weekend's been fun. Katie and I went shopping today and then nancy met us at my house after. I always have so much fun with those two. lol. but the next couple weeks should rock too. cuz it's almost spring break which means almost hawaii!!! yay! i need a vacation i just wish i could go and like totally leave my life behind ya kno just not think or worry about anything. how awesome. I've been better these last few days. a lot happier than i was on like monday. Just goes to show what god can do. i feel bad tho becuz god's kinda taken a back seat to everyhting else. I rely on people to solve all my problems when i should be going to him. But even so he answers my prayers. amazing love right there. Well i realy wanna write some poetry or sumthing but i always write it on paper first so i'll put it in here later. i love u all!

Madelyn

pictures

hey just playin around with pictures on here so yea. enjoy!



during her floor routine.....that's Terin Humphrey if you didn't know. She's the one that wears all the eye makeup...? Anyways she and mohini were my favorite olympians in '04



this one is really intense and kinda freaky looking

And this is Mohini:

whatever...bored

yea saw this in someone else's blog so i decided to try. (it's your name with singers/bands)

Michael Jackson
Alicia Keys
Duran Duran-wow idk first thing that came to mind
Evanescence
Linkin Park
Yellowcard-yea not 2 fond of them but ok
Norah Jones

Creedence Clearwater-don't ask
Lifehouse
Aerosmith
India.Arie
Rascal Flatts
Edwin McCain

Sarah McLachlan
Alanis Morisette
X-wtf do u put for X?!
Talib Kweli
Oasis
Nickelback

*...surrounded by you glory what will my heart feel? will I dance for you Jesus, or in awe of you be still will i stand i your presence or to my knees will I fall, will I sing Hallejuah, will I be able to speak at all....I can only imagine...*

Hugs

Hey everybody! what's up with y'all? this week is going really slow for me. I really wanna go back to chicago. Not really for the city tho, for Katie. All the sudden I feel kinda secluded and alone. I don't/feel like I can't tell my parents about all this stuff and without Katie in the house or even in MN there's really no family I can talk to. I mean I have pretty great friends who i know i can talk to but it's like they've heard it all and have no more advice for me. Ever felt like u need someone but u just can't get to them? Idk that's the best way I can think of to describe my feelings right now. The last few days i've felt like walking around with one of those buttons that say "I need a Hug." God on sunday and monday it was unbelievable how much better a hug from someone would have made me feel. Although that's partly my fault because I haven't really shared my feelings with too many people so it's not like they know I'm not okay. I keep thinking of the people that are far away from me- Katie, Abbey, Sarah, Justin, Taylor, John. I really wanna see them all and just not have to explain myself and just hug them and cry on their shoulders. It would mean a lot to me right now. Well i'm gunna go. Send me some love especially if you're one of those ppl up there. Better days will come...

Madelyn

*...You should be here with me babe you should be here with me babe ooo i wish you were here....*

wow i have no poetry skills

yea just somethin random i wrote on the plane today.

Tears. drowning in them. invisible. telling myself it's ok when I know it's not. cry myself to sleep. face stained. fury. sadness. longing. missing. bottled up. buried inside. no one hears my cries. i'm too far away from them. reaching. hoping. someone come to my rescue. don't give up. it'll all be alright. one day my tears will all overflow. bursting. breaking the seams. the limits. exposed. but afterward it will all be alright.

yea idk felt sad about leaving chicago. It got me thinking about leaving and being really depressed. obviously i couldn't cry on the plane so i felt alone and like all my feelings were completely buried.

Chicago

I went to Chicago this weekend to visit Katie. OMG it was so great! I would really like to be able to come without the whole family tho; me and Katie and Chris just hung out at their apt. on sat. for awhile and it was one of the best times this weekend. My mom and grandma are just way too protective especially in a city like Chicago. But I'm SO happy for Katie. You can tell she and Chris are really happy together and he's so awesome. When I see them together it makes me want a bf REALLY bad!!!!!!!! Ha, so the other day i took a bunch of quizzes and one was to find out "what kind of guy I really go for" guess what i got....goth. weird huh. Idk i guess it wouldn't be like totally crazy but still. And my soulmate's name is supposed to start with a "J"-Jason especially but mostly just a J. So apparently a goth guy named jason is the one for me. lol. Well I better get going talk to yall soon!

crabby... times ten

AHHHHHHHHHH. just majorly crabby rite now i have wayyyy too much hw. but i'm putting it off which i really shouldn't be doing. anyways idk just like by the end of the day i was pissed and PMSy and tired which makes me crabby. so just not a good combo today. sry if i explode at any of u but now u kno y. I'll just be glad when i get to leave school on friday. get on an airplane and get out of here for a weekend. THANK GOD! just hope i dont have that much hw to do. well i g2g start my backpack load of hw. ciao!