We might as well be strangers

*....I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world....*

That's really how I feel about a few people right now. Which makes me really really sad. I hate it. And I don't get to see them for a long time, like until christmas or longer. It really makes you realize how much you depend or depended on some people in your life. Of course you hardly realize that before they leave. But on the other hand I have to think of how blessed I am to even like know these people and be realted to them. Like I'm always thinking of how messed up some of my family is but I seroiusly wouldn't want different people to be in my family. Yes they do have some problems/addictions and w/e but they are all decent loving people that would never hurt me and would support me and help me. I just feel SO far away from them. Not all of them I guess, i mean i'm closer to some of my relatives than other people but still. We really don't know each other. I guess my sister and I do, for the most part. God i'll do anything to be able and go visit her in Barcelona in like october. w/e it costs, don't get me any christmas presents or clothes or anything until then i'd be ok with that. Ok so here's my idea which I'm gonna try and hold to: go to all like family functions, w/e it is, as long as I can spend time with them. Because I already know my friends and spend enough time with them. So there it is. I'm gonna try to hold to that as much as possible because who's there for you when no one else is? Your family. ALtho that might not be true for everyone it is true for me. Family is SO important to me yet I feel I don't know like any of them. Ok but I'm gonna stop like repeatign myself and go. luv u all. keep in touch.

MadelynClaireSaxton