footprints

Hey! ok get ready for a long random entry. I haven't actually updated with like what's happening in SO long and I STILL haven't been able to get anything written like poetry wise. argh.
Well it's summer now....finally! It's been ok so far. Friday was way fun, sat and today were alright. It was kinda funny cuz I was listenin to usher's confessions album for some reason yesterday and it made me feel like it was last summer again. That was like the soundtrack of last summer along with switchfoot's the beautiful letdown. But I remebered cruising in the new boat, sittin up at like midnite memorizing the words to confessions part 2, trying to learn amanda's dance to "Yeah", Cory tellin me he listened to it during wt. training. Idk made me nastolgic (sp?!)
Last sumemr was a really good summer for me for the most part. tons of new experiences and tons of spending time with my bff's. Who knows maybe this one will be even better. i wonder what this summer's "soundtrack" will be though....hard to say at this point.
Anyways I've gotta start tring to write something cuz I haven't in so so so long and I feel like I really need it. not that i'm like depressed I still need that release tho. And the last time I was gonna write which was a few weeks ago at the lake I was just so confused and angry along with being depressed that I ended up ripping up stuff rather than writing. It's turned out good tho, we're on the same page and things are under control.
And then there's me trying to grasp hold of my faith again. After the mission trip last year and confirmation in the fall my faith was like more than it's ever been and it felt amazing. But now i've lost hold of it again, I get the feeling back every so often but it's kind of like holding onto a slipper bar of soap, u have it for a second and then it disappears and falls out of your hand and you hafta search for it all over again. idk i found it a few weeks ago when i pulled out my newsboys cd for the first time in a LONG time and by the last song i was in tears. Oh by the way i've decided not to read jeremiah or 1 chorinthians, rather genesis or if i get bored with that maybe some psalms.
So yeah that's about it for now. here's some lyrics.
*....And I know that it's coming but I can't see it now and I've touched it in moments but I can't hold it yet and it glows in the darkness and it calls us away to our true destination to that glorious day We'll be singing hallelujah we'll be singing hallelujah at the top of our lungs halle-le-lujah to Your glory, hallelujah, Hallelujah, hallelujah...*

Footprints
One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Scenes from his life flashed across the sky
and he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life had flashed before him,
he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
Dismayed, he asked, "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
I don't understand why, when I needed you most,
you would leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious child.
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering
when you saw only one set of footprints...

That was when I carried you."

p.s. i put more lyrics and stuff in here to make up for my lack of creativity lol

Madelyn Claire...loves u!